run

When I made the decision to create the short film "run." I was dealing with a lot of obstacles in my path. Burnout from a soul-draining job and going through a depression, I truly felt that I lost the motivation to go on. What made it worse was all the concerning news of constant war, violence, and financial precarity. What gave me strength to go on was that I wasn't alone, that a lot of people were feeling how I felt. "run." to me represents our journey to self-actualization throughout life's difficulties. To make the situation more ironic many of those difficulties were felt during the time spent making this. We had an ultra micro budget of less than $1000 USD, my printer died the night before filming so I wasn't able to print my script for the cinematographer, and due to the fact that I was running for pretty much 8 hours straight to film this, I ended the day with heat exhaustion. This being my first time doing major editing for a film created it's on unique set of obstacles including my editing software deleting my file after I finished, resulting in me having to restart the editing process from the beginning. But throughout all that, the fact that I even ended up with an actual film is a miracle in itself. And when I watched it for the first time, I was stunned. I couldn't believe this project ended up as a beautiful work that perfectly encapsulated my vulnerability about the horrific state of the world while still being light enough to appreciate its beauty. I honestly wouldn't change anything about the process, no matter how much I questioned and faltered throughout. This film gave me the confidence and courage to take pride in my work as a filmmaker and embrace my gift to share to the world.